WWDPS? (What would Dr. Phil Say?)

Okay, so being unemployed (sigh), I've had lots of time to think about things and analyze (cough cough over analyze cough) and I started pondering my dating lifestyle. Turns out I have some lame habits.

I like to go for guys I know are bad for me. Maybe so I can have a good reason for breaking things off? Maybe I'm scared of actually committing (bonus points for cliche)? Maybe I don't respect myself enough (a few more points)? Maybe I should pick up some Maybeline mascara. Seriously, mine is getting dried out. The other stuff I have is clumpy.

I make up lame reasons not to date decent guys. I mean, decent guys ask me out, but I say we're incompatible. But what is compatible?! Am I freaked out things will actually go somewhere? Do I subconsciously actually not want to settle down for good? Do I feel 'locked in'? I like to think that I want to find someone special to be with long term. Ooh! Maybe it's old fashioned cliche: "I've been burned before!" (Def worth at least 15 cliche points)

When I do actually date an awesome guy, I freak. RIGHT OUT. I start looking for faults, for downfalls, or reasons to break it off. They can be really dumb reasons too, stuff that can be dealt with. I once rejected a guy because he had a dorky haircut, a cat, but no drivers licence. I don't like cats. Another time I rejected a guy because I thought he was pulling away. Wow.

Maybe all these reasons are crap. Maybe I just haven't found the right guy. Maybe I need to stop being an idiot or start seeing a shrink. Maybe I should get on that Maybeline.

So where the heck is this entry coming from? A guy asked me out today. Let's randomly call him David Bowie. He's tall (awesome), brown hair, brown eyes, is sweet, well spoken, and fun. My first reaction was pretty much to run away and maybe not talk to him for a while. The guy owns a lizard and is musical, clearly we are incompatible. But maybe I should give it a go. I mean... I don't have to marry the guy right? Besides, it could be worse... he could have a cat.
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*Note to self, if interested in a guy, don't give him my blog address.